tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2095278209647200124.post2140334360109200261..comments2023-08-25T05:50:04.996-07:00Comments on 38 weeks and counting: The ParkRenelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08490888250385942221noreply@blogger.comBlogger6125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2095278209647200124.post-40021202870135645932011-09-15T16:38:27.989-07:002011-09-15T16:38:27.989-07:00What a beautiful note from your Mum Renel, such ni...What a beautiful note from your Mum Renel, such nice words.<br />I could paraphrase every sentence, they are all so salient. I just get it all. But, especially that haunting dead baby stare at live babies. I tell myself the same thing 'look away, don't make it any harder than it is' but it seems impossible to do so.<br />I think you've done very well to be back at the park with your son at 9 weeks. I only got back there with the boys a couple of weeks ago, nearly 9 months later. <br />And, we're going through very similar stuff with Xavier and anxiety from all of this. A battle leaving him at every kinder session, and picking at his arms till they bleed (self soothing technique I'm told). It makes it all the harder when we're worried so for the ones that are here. xKatehttp://www.darlingido.blogspot.comnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2095278209647200124.post-83166358940389554902011-09-08T07:51:26.016-07:002011-09-08T07:51:26.016-07:00I can completely relate. I have done the fast walk...I can completely relate. I have done the fast walk/sprint/fake chirpiness off the playground several times. <br /><br />What a sweet note from your mother :) I hate though that you're going through this. <br /><br />Sending love.<br />xoMary Bethhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/12212750107782259674noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2095278209647200124.post-89894551519552758332011-09-07T17:26:19.731-07:002011-09-07T17:26:19.731-07:00Ugh. I feel ya on the voodoo doll thing and have ...Ugh. I feel ya on the voodoo doll thing and have had the exact same thoughts about being cursed, etc. Just horrible. If it's crazy, well, then we're all crazy!JoyAndSorrowhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/03923776278331956351noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2095278209647200124.post-7651726255371248292011-09-07T03:58:07.725-07:002011-09-07T03:58:07.725-07:00I've posted about my hatred of the park before...I've posted about my hatred of the park before. I feel your pain.<br />xoHope's Mamahttps://www.blogger.com/profile/04984543289642681339noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2095278209647200124.post-16794892896393657172011-09-06T19:16:36.697-07:002011-09-06T19:16:36.697-07:00I'm sorry the park wasn't a great experien...I'm sorry the park wasn't a great experience. I commend you for getting out of the house with your son and trying to do something "normal." It's just hard because I feel like people don't understand all of the effort it took for you to get up and going to the park and then their stupid conversations can ruin everything. <br /><br />I just have to tell myself that people don't get it and won't get it until it happens to them... and until then, I just have to put up with stupid comments and stupid conversations I overhear. Somedays I feel like it's my new "job" to educate people and to make them feel bad for talking about babies dying and asking stupid questions like "do you have any kids?" Even though it makes me feel terrible at times, I still love talking about Drew... and sometimes I feel like by sharing Drew and his story, I'm helping people to understand that they need to be more thoughtful before they speak, because you never know who is listening--and what struggles they're facing.<br /><br />Don't give up on the park. Just take it in little steps and one day, in the future, you will make it through an entire visit without feeling terrible :)Katehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/06977142927193857469noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2095278209647200124.post-10285331602101972722011-09-06T14:20:05.515-07:002011-09-06T14:20:05.515-07:00That's the same crazy in my head. Damn it to h...That's the same crazy in my head. Damn it to hell. And I overhear ironically terrible crap about dead babies, too, and have to wonder if it's some sick joke being played on me. Would you have noticed or paid attention to that stupid conversation if Camille were alive, unlikely. It's a lovely gift we're given to be acutely aware of all things sensitive to us.<br /><br />Also, I remember the same body-image speech early on. It's a brutal reminder. And how about the milk that came in? Fun, huh? Body changes and no baby to show for it. :(B. Wilson @ Windy {City} Wilsonshttps://www.blogger.com/profile/17479551028143520755noreply@blogger.com