tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2095278209647200124.post8818062191382740680..comments2023-08-25T05:50:04.996-07:00Comments on 38 weeks and counting: 1 WeekRenelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08490888250385942221noreply@blogger.comBlogger24125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2095278209647200124.post-87053443532446225292012-09-13T05:16:46.600-07:002012-09-13T05:16:46.600-07:00Such a little cutie!
The first few weeks - who a...Such a little cutie! <br /><br />The first few weeks - who am I kidding - the first few months were very emotionally challenging for me. Plus we hadn't really hit our stride yet, so I wasn't getting any time to sit and write, which is often how I process things. <br /><br />I was a mess. Happy - sad - anxious - overjoyed - overwhelmed... It's so hard to parent after you've lost one child. Crazy hormones didn't help. But, it's so much nicer to feel like a emotional schizophrenic with your baby safely tucked up in your arms.<br /><br />I have to agree with what many others have suggested - an apnea alarm of some kind is the ONLY way we get sleep. We have a BabySense in his cot and a clip on one (RespiSense) for when we are in the car, or out and about anywhere he might nap. They are amazing inventions. <br /><br />I hope that your confidence in that beautiful little girl just keeps gently growing, and that you are able to get some much needed rest xxAoifehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/09002790029609631639noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2095278209647200124.post-44616066881014582942012-09-13T05:03:14.205-07:002012-09-13T05:03:14.205-07:00Suzanne I just love this thought - thanks for that...Suzanne I just love this thought - thanks for that - I really needed to hear it today. Aoifehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/09002790029609631639noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2095278209647200124.post-1532034824163650622012-09-12T00:39:23.869-07:002012-09-12T00:39:23.869-07:00How did I miss this!? Your beautiful blue moon bab...How did I miss this!? Your beautiful blue moon baby!? she looks SO snuggly.<br />Your beautiful girls... (and Kai!) <3<br />I am so happy that Harlow is home with you where she belongs. I wish so much that Camille could be there too.<br />xoxoxLaura Beckhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/10837151542900517437noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2095278209647200124.post-85810279559750269102012-09-11T09:38:20.533-07:002012-09-11T09:38:20.533-07:00Such a beautiful story, name, girl. It's heart...Such a beautiful story, name, girl. It's heartbreaking and wonderful and amazing and breathtaking all wrapped up in one sleep-deprived, hormonally-fueled bundle. Sending you lots of love and happy energy. Remembering the baby in the middle, beautiful Camille, with you.<br />xoMary Bethhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/12212750107782259674noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2095278209647200124.post-6649070620004100332012-09-10T01:54:03.583-07:002012-09-10T01:54:03.583-07:00So, so beautiful, Renel. I'm happy for you--a...So, so beautiful, Renel. I'm happy for you--and sad, too. Relieved and joyful that Harlow is here and healthy, but wishing her big sister could be as well. Sending love and hugs. xoMissingMollyhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/06392712704302023431noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2095278209647200124.post-30829529857068852872012-09-09T09:27:12.353-07:002012-09-09T09:27:12.353-07:00Harlow is gorgeous - just like your other children...Harlow is gorgeous - just like your other children!<br /><br />I am 21-weeks today and continue to bemoan the fact that this new child will not instantly heal my shattered heart. That I will carry the anguish and longing for my firstborn to my grave. Holding elation and grief in your heart simultaneously is an inhuman task, but we do it. Love to you and your family of 5.Pieces of Mehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/05246193199805990821noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2095278209647200124.post-11402202216186072932012-09-09T07:28:31.833-07:002012-09-09T07:28:31.833-07:00Oh what a sweetheart. She's beautiful Renel. L...Oh what a sweetheart. She's beautiful Renel. Love to you, and remembering Camille always. xxTashhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/07078703799477411588noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2095278209647200124.post-14977338711236407062012-09-09T05:35:55.541-07:002012-09-09T05:35:55.541-07:00She is totally gorgeous and precious <3
And ye...She is totally gorgeous and precious <3<br /><br />And yes this is the life of a mama on full guard as you say. Even with the angelcare monitor (and snuza for naps out of the cosleeper) sometimes I am sleep deprived and awake just making sure Ginny is breathing...like now for example :). Our younger but older daughters will certainly never doubt that they are wanted and loved, will they?SGhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/10751681504123990038noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2095278209647200124.post-75868111064387103902012-09-08T21:14:12.306-07:002012-09-08T21:14:12.306-07:00Congratulations sweet mamma!!! She is just preciou...Congratulations sweet mamma!!! She is just precious!! I know how many conflicting thought hare running through your mind right now and i'm sending hugs and love your way... xo<br />PS- try an Angelcare monitor- LOVE it! Each twin has one...Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2095278209647200124.post-73855525765231111142012-09-08T20:34:17.907-07:002012-09-08T20:34:17.907-07:00Yep, I get all of this. Those first few days and w...Yep, I get all of this. Those first few days and weeks and months are so complicated and full of the greatest happy/sad contrast I've ever known. Sleeping so little certainly doesn't help. I wish you little bits of peace amid the chaos. <br /><br />And this is totally off subject, but have you looked into the Snooza? It attaches to their diaper and an alarm goes off if there isn't any movement. I think it's the one thing that allows us to fall asleep at night without too much anxiety. Totally worth it for us. http://www.amazon.com/Snuza-Portable-Baby-Movement-Monitor/dp/B002WLGV08/ref=sr_1_2?ie=UTF8&qid=1347161566&sr=8-2&keywords=snooza<br /><br />Josh Jacksonhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/07558455153152363458noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2095278209647200124.post-32527392241984453902012-09-08T20:20:14.033-07:002012-09-08T20:20:14.033-07:00Love that yawn. The happy and sad and hormones -- ...Love that yawn. The happy and sad and hormones -- a challenging combination. I'm with LJ -- I slept much better because of the Snuza.Brookehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/05946311309467296976noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2095278209647200124.post-82042047611918452772012-09-08T19:25:28.922-07:002012-09-08T19:25:28.922-07:00ohhhh shes gorgeous! Its so beautiful to see her!!...ohhhh shes gorgeous! Its so beautiful to see her!! I hate this pain that is still there, Camille would have been the best older sister to Harlow! Missing Camille, and love seeing baby Harlow! <br />Younginshttps://www.blogger.com/profile/05496298210828892165noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2095278209647200124.post-12178498263279712632012-09-08T17:53:10.886-07:002012-09-08T17:53:10.886-07:00She is beautiful and I am so very happy that you a...She is beautiful and I am so very happy that you are holding your baby girl in your arms. And I share your sadness for Camille, the one you cannot hold. Also, I can relate to your hatred of the 38th week. <br />I love the photo of the blue moon!<br />I am so happy for you and I hope your days ahead are filled with love, happiness and peaceful times. <br />Katyhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/18099433318490173079noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2095278209647200124.post-6501328673765754052012-09-08T16:41:06.452-07:002012-09-08T16:41:06.452-07:00She is absolutely beautiful. I am so very happy fo...She is absolutely beautiful. I am so very happy for you that she is here, but totally understand the sadness. Congrats again!Darceyhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/11815399702690690011noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2095278209647200124.post-47830705251228452652012-09-08T11:18:49.453-07:002012-09-08T11:18:49.453-07:00She's just lovely. I so hate this is the life ...She's just lovely. I so hate this is the life you have to live, without your Camille.<br /><br />I was the exact same, non-sleeping momma until I bought the Snuza. It was life-altering that Snuza.Lj82https://www.blogger.com/profile/01067562341189588336noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2095278209647200124.post-90207892279417448482012-09-08T10:57:17.719-07:002012-09-08T10:57:17.719-07:00She is gorgeous. Hi Harlow!!!! Love to you and thi...She is gorgeous. Hi Harlow!!!! Love to you and thinking of Camille xoxoxoxmichellehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/07960223886511130664noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2095278209647200124.post-78378224591892677042012-09-08T10:49:20.331-07:002012-09-08T10:49:20.331-07:00And that "big baby," too - is very much ...And that "big baby," too - is very much peachy keen...and reminds me so much of his Mama. He has so many features like yours...<br /><br />(Do you think so? In "real" life?)<br /><br />Again,<br /><br />CiMGroveshttps://www.blogger.com/profile/14867095709948739457noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2095278209647200124.post-2809479932111757822012-09-08T10:47:40.548-07:002012-09-08T10:47:40.548-07:00Renel, don't know how many times I have though...Renel, don't know how many times I have thought about you and your kids this week. *All* your kids.<br /><br />How relieved I feel that Harlow is here. How a trillion times more relieved *you* feel. How sad I feel that Camille is not. How a trillion times more *you* feel.<br /><br />Perhaps I always say this - but is this baby Harlow the most beautiful in the whole wide world? The peachy-est? The keen-est?<br /><br />The pictures say so...<br /><br />Is she lovely, or what?!<br /><br />Glad and sad and all, all, all,<br /><br />CiMGroveshttps://www.blogger.com/profile/14867095709948739457noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2095278209647200124.post-67417439268127189522012-09-08T02:35:07.029-07:002012-09-08T02:35:07.029-07:00Yep, this is just how it is. Exactly.
xoYep, this is just how it is. Exactly.<br />xoHope's Mamahttps://www.blogger.com/profile/04984543289642681339noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2095278209647200124.post-19822811495666407792012-09-08T02:02:31.831-07:002012-09-08T02:02:31.831-07:00She is a-mazing. Just so completely real, it blow...She is a-mazing. Just so completely real, it blows my mind.<br />She's a show stopper. <br /><br />I nodded along with Di, with the trying to wrap my head around this notion of "forever" without one. I hope somehow that reality becomes...softer? Wears less on you..? Is wrapped with new love to make it hurt less?<br /><br />I'm so happy she's so perfect. And I believe in what Suzanne said....Harlow was created, and grew because of all the perfection Camille left behind.<br /><br />Sending my love to you, and your beautiful familyVeronicahttps://www.blogger.com/profile/06281894679573984580noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2095278209647200124.post-54197382102912268652012-09-08T00:59:23.116-07:002012-09-08T00:59:23.116-07:00She is just beautiful and sweet and perfect.
I st...She is just beautiful and sweet and perfect.<br /><br />I struggle with the idea of this hurting lasting forever, there always being one child missing from our family photos, from our visible lives. The forever without them seems almost unbearable... but I as you have said, I hope that the arrival of my new baby brings a happy that can co-exisit with that gapping hole that my first born as left.<br /><br />Sweet thoughts a wishes to you and your family :) DiDihttps://www.blogger.com/profile/15791609037571326015noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2095278209647200124.post-78414091382607374672012-09-07T23:00:52.565-07:002012-09-07T23:00:52.565-07:00My fave pic is the yawning one. Remembering Camill...My fave pic is the yawning one. Remembering Camille with you.Emhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/11910371746336686970noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2095278209647200124.post-78219478478840124132012-09-07T22:26:59.225-07:002012-09-07T22:26:59.225-07:00She is just perfect and beautiful. Well done growi...She is just perfect and beautiful. Well done growing that amazing little one! I love her name, too. What a beautiful name, too. What a beautiful gift to give to a beautiful girl. <br /><br />I remember reading somewhere that the fetal cells of older siblings are often found in younger siblings. Maybe Harlow has pieces of Camille with her always. And pieces of Kai, too. I don't know if you think about those kinds of things or not, or if it's meaningful, but I think it's amazing. <br /><br />Sending love to you all during these first days home with Harlow, and sending you peace and maybe even some rest with your new baby <3Suzannehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/01955054876521178314noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2095278209647200124.post-9964332496498274202012-09-07T21:26:00.710-07:002012-09-07T21:26:00.710-07:00Oh you make beautiful children. She is just lovabl...Oh you make beautiful children. She is just lovable! <br /><br />I did what you are doing with the age and gestational age. I remember when Finn was 9 days old...if he had still been in utero he would have been the same age as Cale was.... Day 10 was wonderful and heartbreaking. <br /><br />Lots of love as you navigate this new part of your life, as a family of five.Carolinehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/00101380791416834049noreply@blogger.com