Kai turned 3 years old today! I can't believe he is 3. 3 years ago after 17 hours of labor and at 8 pounds 12 ounces my big first child was born. I am constantly amazed by him. By his intelligence, kindness, intuitiveness and humor. He carries my heart. No 3 year old should ever have to carry their mothers heart but we have no choice. I depend on him to soothe my sorrow even though no words are spoken. He holds my heart and loves me because I am his mama. That is how he rescues me. I am not sure how I would be coping right now with out him. Honestly he buoys me. I feel so lucky to be his mother. I wish Camille could have been here to eat chocolate cake with him. We gave him a bike with training wheels which he can already ride. We celebrated with our friends who Kai loves dearly and he will have a little kid party on Friday. Everyday I am thankful for his aliveness, for his hugs and kisses and sweet funny self.
Happy birthday baby. I love you bigger than the sky.
About Me
- Renel
- My second child and our first daughter, Camille, died and was born on June, 30 2011 when I was full term at 38 weeks pregnant. I gave birth to my rainbow baby, a second daughter, on August 31, 2012. This is me trying to figure out how to be a mother to my living son and daughter and function in society after our tragic loss.
Happy Birthday, Kai! He seems like just the sweetest little man.
ReplyDeleteSo thankful for healthy, thriving, beautiful baby boys. Happy birthday, Kai. You are so loved.
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Oh happy birthday sweet Kai. Your mumma loves you so much! xx
ReplyDeleteHappy birthday, Kai!!! Three is an awesome age (but each age has been the best, huh?), and I have been enjoying Sloane so much! She is my rock and my lifeline, as well. Don't know how I would have made it through this without her either. Our little lifesavers. :) Big hugs to you and Kai!
ReplyDeleteHappy Birthday, sweet Kai. It is quite the celebration! I can't even imagine a 3-year old! How wonderful. :) Hope he brings you joy everyday and especially on days where Camille is missed extra.
ReplyDeleteHi Renel...Happy Birthday to your little guy. I was touched by your post b/c I feel exactly the same way about my daughter, Emma. She was my saving grace after I lost my daughter Isla at 38 weeks. I hope Kai's birthday brings you much happiness today!
ReplyDeleteHappy Birthday to Kai! I'm so glad you have him to light up your life.
ReplyDeleteHappy birthday Kai & Mama! What a beautiful gift you are to each other.
ReplyDeleteHappy birthday to your lovely Kai. I hope he enjoys his party and I'm so glad that you have one another xo
ReplyDeleteHappy birthday gorgeous Kai!! Wish your little sister were there to dribble on your chocolate cake. So glad he's there with you Renel. Sounds like a gorgeous celebration xxxxh
ReplyDeleteHappy birthday to Kai!
ReplyDeleteHappy 3rd birthday to beautiful Kai!!
ReplyDeleteHappy B DAY Kai.xo
ReplyDeleteHappy Birthday to your sweet little guy!
ReplyDeletePS - 17 hours?! Bless you.
Happy Birthday to you Kai!
ReplyDeleteHappy birthday Kai!
ReplyDeleteAren't hugs from these little people in our lives just heart lifting.
I know my nieces and nephews hugs have that effect on me :)
I'm so glad that you have this little light to help you through the darker hours. I hope Kai has a wonderful birthday party.
ReplyDeleteHappy (belated) birthday to Kai!
ReplyDeleteSuch beautiful words.. I esp love "He carries my heart"... our DD does that for me too. You are an amazing mum to both your kids and hopefully our little ones will grow up with a deeper understanding of life for having a sibling that they've never met. Happy birthday to your darling Kai... wow - bike with training wheels... he'll have so much fun :)) Love to you, Kai and Camille xoxo
ReplyDeleteI'm am beyond late here, but Happy Birthday little Kai! My bday is the 9th, so I consider myself to be in good February company with him :) Big smooches for you three year old love bug.
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